Food for thought.

So I was flipping thru the papers. Apparently , the issue on "sex-for-grades" between the professor and the lady was all heated up last week.

Feeling a bit of ambivalent. Yes the professor was charged for being sexually initmate with the lady. And what she wanted was grades.

But who knows? Who knows that there might really be having some sort of love between them (though it hardly seemed to be the case) , what IF. Concrete proof of claimed bribery was shown and yes that lady probably showered the prof with more gifts.

But it is also hard to deny that society really perceives grades as probably, the most important criteria when considering employment . The one who acheived better grades gets more opportunities and have undeniably better career prospects. Securing a job that brings enough monetary satisfaction on top of personal interest is so important nowadays. Certificates are even more important than one's actual capability. Who dares to argue that money is not significant in this current world?  Without money, lots of things cant be fufilled. Even daily needs cant be met without money. Money makes people feel contented and happy. That is probably why everyone strives to get the best of the best grades so as to be better assured of their future. In other words, the girl's concerns can be understood to a certain extent.  No I am not saying its ethically right for her to commit such acts in exchange for grades. But in this competitive world, one is probably just too stressed out and thus chose the 'wrong' way to pursue things . Its somehow or rather , the key to survive in this ever-changing world . No it is also not that if she cant get a job she would die, of course. In the end , I guess the one who is suffering most is the prof's wife. Who could stand a partner's infedility ?

Just some of my thoughts and feelings. :) 

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Small But Significant .

I was really happy last week because it was kbox time ! ^-^ .

I just needed to sing all my troubles away . Sometimes its just those days when you feel really upset /irritated / annoyed for no good reasons . This week in school is .. pretty normal . I guess i just got really lethargic by the end of the week . And i get annoyed easily . 

Shall not talk too much about why i get annoyed . OR the people who made me feel really irritated . I dont want to give unhappy happenings a second thought . And yes i am exercising my choice wisely . 

Is it just me ? I just dont like it when people are too annoying to the extent that i cant even have a proper conversation with them .  Its really detestable that people have to deliberately speak with their words FULL of sarcasms . They just speak right into your face .  Its not that i have low tolerance or bad attitude . I seldom get frustrated over such stuffs , but i really dont like it when people say unpleasant things along with their sarcasms . And i wasnt the one who initiate the conversation , neither was i the one who even bother to exchange words with such people . So why won't you leave me alone ? Yes its those people who start talking and you can't help but ask them to stfu . We are not given a mouth to create unhappiness . 

OK back to kbox . Had a great time ^-^ . 

Puzzle

" Why should i be happy? "

Do you ask yourself this during moments of frustration and sadness ? I know its really challenging to force yourself to answer this question when you are anxious / angry / stressed out. I admit , its hard for me too.

Then tranquillity sets in and I think about it. I should be happy because im living in  safe country. Though I am not really financially well-to-do , but I dont suffer from rampant proverty. My needs , and even my wants are met. Though the weather is sweltering HOT, im thankful that climate disaster such as droughts doesn't occur. Though we do not have zero crime rate, I still feel secure and safe stepping out to the streets. I dont have to live in fear for tomorrow.  (But cases on outrage of modesty have keened and I guess we must be more careful hahaha) Though I may not live in a mansion or bungalow or terrace house, im glad that I dont have incessant worries for a roof over my head. Though I may still be feeling the hunger pangs in the middle of the night, I feel glad that im not suffering, growing emaciated and gaunt because of shortage of food. Though I may not be in some prestigious schools , im glad I have an opportunity to be educated, which others are yearning for. Honestly, no resentments for my living condition. Lastly , I have great parents / good friends , and they never fail to make me laugh every day. So there is a reason to be happy afterall.

Sometimes things may seemed bleak and we often question our own abilities. We are doubtful of ourselves when we cant handle things the way we want to . We feel the immense resentment towards unhappy problems and we ask "why dont things improve?  " . Often, I tried to tell myself what im feeling right now is not and would never be the worst because there are always people who are less fortunate than me . I am worrying about grades while they are worrying about their lives,  and their hopes for better tomorrow are probably dreams that could never come true . I live beyond that and thinking that they cant even have the opportunity to feel how I felt , im truly contented .  So perhaps , you might want to change change the question to , " why should I be Contented? "  . Then you will probably feel better. And you could go ahead to find other reasons why you should be happy , on top of feeling contented.

Its really annoying for me to type this paragraph after one whole chunk which is talking about reasons to be happy.

So I was wondering, if everyone was to feel contented with their current situation , who will be propelled to improve their living condition and lives ? If everyone was satisfied , where comes the driving force to push us to achieve greater dreams and to escalate our country's level of development to greater heights?

But yeah, I know its impossible for everyone to feel pleased , satisfied and grateful for everything they have. Humans are greedy and we cant deny the inexorable trend that people are willing to do anything for money.

However , we wont be happy forever and there are certainly times when we will feel sad , but the most impt thing is to remember to snap out of sadness . :)

Shall end this post here !

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Hah ?

Sometimes I am just too used to what this friend is doing that it doesn't even bother me to quiver in rage anymore.

I am just too used to hearing what you speak of us in our absence that I find it flat and distasteful even when I hear the meanest comment you said .

I am just too used to your attention demands that my reaction just goes with a sneering hah whenever I hear what you whip up to satisfy yourself.

And im just too used to it that I am barely even surprise or shock by my new discovers about you.

Im just too used to it that I don't even want to care about your existence anymore.

Thanks for trying so hard. :) .

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Friday, the 13th.

Beautiful day. Had fun during the annual sports fiesta though we did not win anything. However, we do have accomplishments. Because my class became closer. Well I guess that's something to be thankful for!  ^-^ .

Next thing. I am glad to have this friend , who is closer to us now. We have been rather good friends for 2 years. We sort of drifted away due to unhappy things that happen in the midst of last year. Before those unhappy things happened, I knew that there is a possibility that stuffs between us would progress in a rather morose note. That is because we have different opinions, views, character and perspection towards handling of things. True enough , our friendship became more strained , to a point that I start to resent the presence of this friend .  I do understand no friends are perfect for each other. Best of friends do fight sometimes too. So today, I am glad that we still come today like before, sharing things and learning more about each other. It was then I realised we really left this friend out for quite a bit. Its actually this that actually propelled me to share this on my blog. Hahaha. Because I am really glad that things are getting better.

Cherish your friends. :)

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Blessed ^-^

Harlow ! Okay usually when i type "harlow" i am expecting people to think im high and active . Hahaha do you ? 

Happy things in this week (And last week):

Sakura Buffet with classmates [I swear i laughed A LOT]

BBQ and swimming yesterday with classmates ^-^

Collecting my purchases this coming thursday ! *Excited*

Celebrating Baby S birthday this friday ! ^-^

Favourite hangout this coming saturday ! ^-^

Huhuhu really thankful im allowed time to have incessant joy with people i loved !

Disclaimer : Yesterday activity was really really unplanned . Everything happened so last min and probably that's why we didn't manage to call so many people . Shall call all girls next time teehee !^^

 Know what ? We actually knew on the day itself that we are allowed , or perhaps we could bbq ! Went to buy food at fairprice and you wouldn't believe the ingenious plan we adopted . Hehehe BTW we only had fishballs, crabsticks , cheese tofu , tofu , teriyaki chicken , hotdogs and nuggets for out bbq .

 Preparing food with hands .  I MEAN NOTHING BUT BARE HANDS . No tongs , no cutlery at all till Bibi came...  

 Back to the same place we bbq-ed during class outing . Oh and can u see a person swimming in the pool . Thats the pervert uncle because he was staring at us as most of us were in fbt pants . Hahaha probably he was thinking we were really crazy to bbq in a sweltering afternoon ... BUT WE ASSUMED HE WAS A PERVERT BECAUSE HE HAD A REAL FURTIVE LOOK . 

Paper plates as tongs ! How clever can we get ? Hahaha . NO actually , we were screaming most of the time because its bloody hot when we had to use our hands to flip the aluminium foil . Nonetheless , It was really an unforgettable attempt to bbq with only 6 people in the afternoon . AND WE WERE UNPREPARED . I was actually quite worried for hygiene ... we used hands to spread the butter . and use winnie's pencil case scissors to cut raw chicken meat . I swear its super hilarious when phyllis and i were preparing the chicken.. Zealously trying to remove the skin hahaha . 

How messy can girls get when they are cooking ????? Hmmmmmmm.....

 Food time ! ^^

Swimming ! ^^ . I swear this is mad funny . Hahaha we have to jump a few times because my camera shutter  speed was real slow . And hmm ... the photographer too... GUESS WHO WAS ALREADY IN THE WATER .

In case if you are wondering why oh why we were swimming after bbq-ing . Because we were only allowed to use the pit to latest 1530 . U kidding me ? I dont even see a single soul bbq-ing [except for us...] so why wont you allow us to use it longer ? :( . But nah , Im quite impressed by our speed . We were all done by 1520 ^^ . Thankyou halima for helping us to book ! And Im really thankful no one fall sick after eating those food . HAHAHA u know i know .

Okay last thing i have to say . Truly glad that i really had fun weeewoooo with all these mates . Actually im really thankful that im happy . Btw guess what ? My brother and i dont really fight nowadays . Because i madly employing the ignorance plan to deal with him . My anger was managed to an extent . I hope he's feeling glad that we dont really fight now . 

Do you know that problems / habits , in fact most of them can never be cured ? They could only be managed and controlled , just like happiness . You are a person who loves food and cant stop eating when you see delicacies . Yes you can control your eating habit  . But am i right to say you still love food ? You love to spend money and cant stop when you see pretty stuffs . You can control your spending habit . But you still love to spend right ? 

Its not easy to manage and control things . But you would definitely be a better person if you could master it . :) .  

Its baby s birthday this coming thurs ! Im really glad i have these friends with me for sooo long . Friends really influence how you behave . Im blessed because i have really good friends with me . Actually im really thankful i have phyllis by my side hahah . Though shes really kiddy and childish sometimes . Ok sometimes i am too . Hahah . Friends are angels who lift you up to your feet when your wings have trouble remembering "how to fly" . Cherish your friends and loved ones . :) . We are graduating soon..... :( . 

Dramas , really .

Hi . I really meant dramas, literally .
I really love to watch dramas . But i have to restrict myself . Well , insufficient time is not the main reason , though it plays a part . 
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I will get too emotional. HAHAHA . Really . I will think of all possible outcomes before the final episode . And really really wish the outcome will be what i want it to be . I will be ecstatic if the couple got together and bla bla bla . But i will be really upset if they dont . Then even after finishing that particular drama , I WILL PONDER A LOT . Like.... why arent they together ? why must it be like this ? What happens if im her/him ? And normally i will feel sad for the couple . Which is something .. sort of.. delusional ? They ain't even couples in real life , and if hell they really were , who am i to care about their relationship ? And ass i know those weren't real , why would such dramatic sweet enpowering love story even existed in real life ? Will someone who likes you go to the extent of buying a house right next to you just to be near you ? Then i will tell myself cmon its just a drama . WHY ARE U THINKING SO MUCH ? YES EXACTLY WHY AM I THINKING SO MUCH . Okay i shall confess now ....
I just finished Prosecutor Princess . And hell it was nice because it turns out like what i wanted it to ! Hehehe. Im sort of happy for them that they are together . Hahaha . Okay its a lunatic here . Hahahaha why am i so involved in a drama ? 

FACTS ABOUT ME WHEN I WATCH DRAMA 
- It would be a rather denial statement if i say i watch all dramas , and as i said i dont watch much .  I prefer to watch those "love" dramas . And which drama didn't revolve around love ? Hahah . Thats why dramas are killer for females . Because of the lovestory fairy tale that exists in it . Most of the females [assumption] , i guess , like me , knew such perfectly coordinated things wouldn't happen in real life (ask them why ) . in short , they are unrealistic , to some extent . But as humans i guess we love incredibly magically love-tuned dramas . We all love good things . We want to see favourable and pleasant outcomes . Who wouldn't ?

-I DONT LIKE TO RUSH FINISH A DRAMA . A drama to me is not just a show , as said i will get emotional hahahaha wts . I wouldn't want to rush finish a drama just because i want to see the outcome  ...Hmm indirectly means that i want to enjoy watching drama . Hahaha . I would watch little by little ,and slowly think of the outcome . Hahahah . I wonder if who thinks alike ? We are two peas in a pod ^-^ . You can watch drama with me hahahaha .

- I like to watch drama alone . Shit it contradicts what i have just typed 3 seconds ago . Hahaha . Actually all along i watch drama with my mum , father , brother ....... And shit always happens . IT WAS AWKWARD . When there are moments of bed scene / kissing scene / mushy scene ... Some of those scenes are quite funny , but hell you gotta control that laughter . i mean , you cant even let it out . WHAT would my mum think if im laughing over such sensitive scenes ? And what would she think i was thinking ? etc. Actually the most awkward moment is when my whole family is watching a tv show . And this woman / vavavoom who is scantily dressed starts to get involve in sensitive scenes .It would be really awkward to watch what this couple is doing in front of your parents... ohya , and some really sad scenes , you have to control your tears (if there is ) because you know people are noticing you (when they are watching dramas too ..) . Too much stifling of sobs and you will be the limelight , instead of the climax in the show .

okay that sort of end my post . I sure like dramas , but can't have them too much . 

The expired !

Okay there are quite a number of pics i wanna upload but always not time .. and sometimes my cam failed me argh u bitch hahahah . Omg btw can u believe that good things are really happening to me recently ? I feel so blessed . why am i heavily saturated with happiness ? ^-^ . Okay yes ya yeah im talking to myself . I want incessant joy . YES happiness can be controlled and created by me ! *chants* .

Okay im really tickled pink . Because i finally have a new room ! Can you believe it ? I've been waiting for it since i was primary 5 . See ? Wishes do come true . Patience is undoubtedly a virtue . Anger and disappointments may strike in the midst .. Luck do play a part but hope and faith make wishes into reality ! *Why do i sound like im preaching hahaha *

So actually i was quite disappointed , topped with surge of anger , when i heard that i dont get a new table . I  didnt know what to say at first when my mum happily announce that bro is getting a new bed . I wasnt that angry at that spur , really. I just thought that you have forgotten about me. Did you forget to remember me ? Then disappointment swirled into welling tears , but i guessed that creasing and gritting was enough to hold them back . And i guessed mum saw it , even though i didnt really want her to ... I dont want to act like that chunky piece of wood satisfaction is all that matters but still.... But im glad mum explained and yes , i do have fianancial considerations in mind . And so that day passed with a rather low note .

But guess what ? MUM actually got her friend to get a study table from giant. Though its those that u have to fix everything from scratch . Okay i shall pause here . Read on ! 

So this is the end product ! Guess how much does it cost ! Hehehehe its only $60 . BECAUSE u have to fix all the bits and screw and hinges and wood and handles and all tgt by yourself . Actually i was quite confident  when i saw the packaging (beaming with intelligence) . But it turns rather bleak when i tore it open . 100 over screws . And wood pieces . LITERALLY 20 wood pieces lying flat demanding for our attention . 

i was glad i have my father with me to fix this ! Hahaha and it took us 3 hours . But the sense of accomplishment is inexplicable . IM SO CAPABLE I PERFORM MAGIC ON SCREWS AND A TABLE EVOLVED . ok actually im good at reading and interpreting the 3D images in the instruction booklet and guiding my father . That sounds a fair bit more professional . Yea ?

Here's your highness bed ! Hahaha . Actually its really comfy .And quite a lot of people have told me it looks kind of expensive (IT IS ) because the frame is cushioned . Actually my table color matches my bed frame and wardrobe . Such a coincidence . **MAGIC

My cute little piglet is engaged with doraemon ! ^-^ . That makes me a mistress because i sleep between them everyday . Hahahah dont u think the doraemon is cute ?????

The Quite Messy Corner

Lomo prints ! Actually i wanna make a bigger college so i can take it as a background for future camwhoring hahah . And i rushed to order more lomo cards . Hahah Feasible ? 

And so im ending here with a few expired shots / OFTD blabla.

During Holidays when i went out with phyllis ! ^-^

Casual 

caramel chocolate or strawberry ?

Hahahha yucckkkkk