Battleship

Another week coming to an end again. Time really flies. And next week is Mother Tongue O Level examination. I sort of have this tinge of confidence. I hope. Hahah. Thanks to hot housing, I really feel super lethargic everyday. And thanks to lizards and cockroaches, im living in fear in my room everyday. :@ I hope I look like a monster in their eyes so they can run 148584929 km away from me once they sense my presence 100m away.  Ok this doesn't makes sense. But I really dont like them. Inevitably, I will really scream when I encounter them. By encounter I mean close encounter. And if those cockroaches start flying, I will be scurrying in all directions. Ok shall end here before I get all engrossed in the concise details. Inexplicably gross.

#1 - screenshot of my phone "homescreen" . Maybe I should try adding some effects. ^^

#2- Hardworking girl in action ^^

Published with Blogger-droid v2.0.4

Happy are you ?

" Am I happy? " Do you question yourself that often , just like I did?

Why is it so hard to be happy? I mean, from the start of this year , my life has been revolving around the same old things My daily routine is just to do assignments and complete my tasks. I just take my three meals as normal and go to schoo even if my world collapse. Sometimes I just feel the intense stress that I wished I just slipped into my own planet and never come back again. Everything is about studies nowadays. Friends are always talking about grades. Parents are always comparing grades. Teachers are emphasizing that we cant afford to take a break this year. The better I push myself to score, te higher the expectations I have to live up. The higher the expectations people see in me, the higher the disappointment they gonna get. Because, im simply not good enough. 

I really, really have no time to even go out and do something I like. I just find everywhere so crowded and I cant even have a space on my own other than my ten feet room.

Now, even feeling that tinge of happiness comes with a price.

Published with Blogger-droid v2.0.4

Published with Blogger-droid v2.0.4

Shopafrolic

Ignore the title hahaha. Swrewed up sense of uniqueness.

Anyways , I have been on seventh heaven almost everyday this week. Hehehe because everyday is full of surprises. My items from shopping Spree finally came. It took what seemed like ages to reach me. Unwrapping those bags are just like unwrapping presents. Hahaha because I merely have forgotten what I purchased. Hehehe. Too many of them.. The first picture is my items from shopping Spree. The second one are items from gmarket. The pen looking like is actually an eyeliner from etude house. ^^ .

Anyways, im glad that last test of the term has ended. Finally I could concentrate on chinese. Hehe. I realise the only moment I love chinese is when it comes to singing  chinese songs I like. Whatever it is, I really hope I will be able to do well. Well, who doesn't?  But im afraid I will be plunging into disappointment again.

Alright, if you are taking your mother tongue O levels soon too, I wish you good luck ^-^ .  

Published with Blogger-droid v2.0.4

Is it just me?

Sometimes, I get very pissed off with myself. I can find myself commenting on what people should do in this and that. And realise if im in the same situation, I may be as lost as them , or even worst then them. Sometimes I hate people for not being able to understand me. And i find thousands of excuses not to confide to them. Then I realise, have I actually made an effort to understand people more instead of giving a steadfast judge ? Idk. People may have their own reasons behind all those frames that we see. If we are able to look beyond of ourselves and make an effort to care more about others , the world will be a better place. 

As said, eventually humans are selfish, yes you and I.

Published with Blogger-droid v2.0.4

A day out ^^

Have been out today to Kbox ! ^-^ I can sort of say that its my favourite hangout , or probably a simple leisure activity ? Just that my leisure requires me to spend money :( . But what really matters is , im tickled pink ! [ Hahahahah why do i have to use that ]

But actually the real reason i love to go kbox is because i can sing using the mike [Yes i love to sing ] . Perhaps you may think im crapping but it makes a ton difference when you're singing normally and when you're singing using a mike . Or you can say that i love to hear my own pretty voice over the speakers hahah .  Ohya , and kbox has got the atmosphere ! I would prefer chinese songs to english songs , though i listen to both . Shall argue that when i listen to chinese songs , im more exposed to chinese language . Hahaha anyways , sometimes you just feel like the lyrics are wrote for you , the music is tuned for you , dont you ? 

K lunch ! Look at the bento they gave us ! ^^ .Yummy and there's my favourite watermelon ! ^^

Hehehe Chawanmushi ! :) Damn nice so i have to eat before taking picture . HAHAH   

YOU WILL NEVER GUESS WHERE WE TOOK THE BELOW PHOTOS ~

Sorry my dear song en if you are reading this , i didnt post all the pictures we took because i realise they all look the same ... Hahahahahhahahahahahahha

 Outfit of the day ! watch out for my self - bleached shorts ! ^^

Till then <3 

Family .

Its gonna be mother day this weekend . Im quite ashamed because every year , we didnt really celebrate this impt day with her .. I guess if i was her i would have been broken into pieces , because even my dad doesn't celebrates this day together with the family too ..

Sometimes i wonder and think a lot about my own family  , and i compare my very own with others . I can't even remember when was the last time we went out together ..When was the last time we ate outside together ? And when was the last time we celebrate a particular occasion together ? Why can others have such a beautifully -painted picture of family whereas mine was embedded back in my childhood ? 

I really wanna celebrate this coming mother day with my precious mum . I want her to know i really really really love her . I want her to feel appreciated by all of us . Seeing her slogging her guts out for this family is really heart wrenching .She wakes up at 4 everyday to prepare to go for work at pioneer , she sleeps at 12 almost everyday . Shes a cleaner at a particular company , and despite her having swollen feet [due to weight]  , she managed to climb flights of stairs and clean them thoroughly every single day . She knock off at 5 , and when she comes back , she have to either cook or buy food for us . I mean , mummy , to me you are really a superwoman . But no matter how strong one might be ,  he/she collapsed in heap one day with so many  overloaded activities to do . Its definitely not easy to manage work and family , and to summon every ounce of energy to make sure that we get the best , despite of their difficulties . As a daughter , i really wonder why i cant do more for her ? Or at least alleviate her everlasting burden . Sometimes she still have to do household chores after cooking , and my heart really pains . As much as i hope shes getting sufficient rest as shes getting aged , i cant help but say that we are reason for her insufficient sleep . I really have to do more , and seeing her sacrificing so much for us makes me feel guilty for  making her angry sometimes . Sorry mummy , I hope you know no matter what , you will always be my no.1 best mummy , and i love you forever and ever.
and yes , im gonna celebrate this mother day with her . Thanks god, you gave me the most precious gift in my lifetime .