Do you remember ?

Managed to correctly conveyed some of my feelings here . I dont need you to like it , I just need you to get me . P.S . 


When lollipops turned into cigarettes .
When the only drugs you knew was cough medicine .
When hugs turned to kisses , then to sex .
When the only war game you knew was Digimon card game .
When the only person you dared to say ILOVEYOU was your parents .
When the best reward was an ice cream from mummy .
When the only evil guy you know was mojojojo .
When a burger simply puts a smile on your face.
When you only cry when you lost your favourite hairclip .
When your hair was never messy no matter how ugly it looks .
When looks never matter as long as your mummy says Youarepretty .
When something you loved the most was the hello kitty pen your daddy gave you .
When the most comforting words are always from mama .
When you would only think about what to eat tomorrow before going to sleep today .
When the worst punishment was mum's canny cane .
When bitches , sluts and bastards are aliens to you . 
When your only best friend was mollie next door .
When barney is all that you hugged to sleep .
WHEN HAPPINESS WAS ALL YOU KNEW .
Little tom and mary , Hows your life now ? 


Thankyou for reading . :)

Heres my strong urge to blog .
Theres really a big difference >
When you are wrong and you admit it , If its not t others , at least the minimum to yourself .
AND .
When you are wrong , You are just trying to testify for yourself and complain about others .
Well , Just argued w my brother .
Argh . Sometimes i really got very pissed at him . I srsly wonder , When will he grow up , And learn ? 
he totally have no respect for elders . Im not trying to embarrass him . But i really feel that theres a need for him to learn , much more to learn . yes im not perfect , But at least im trying to get my wrongs right , And , im really learning . Sometimes i feeel so heartache when he was sooooooo rude to my parents . I srsly wanna slap him . I srsly want to see how his children will treat him . Let him have a taste of himself . Hes always blaming others , always .Hes always justifying for himself , always . Yes sometimes i does it too . But theres really a certain limit . Its really sad to see him behaving like that . Please . I really want him to learn . But theres really nothing i can do . He NEVER listens to me . And i know whenever im trying to talk to him about sth , He will say i does that too .... BLABLABLA . Let fate do the job . *NO EYES TO SEE * [In hokkien ]


Ok now , wanna go visit my uncle . Hes still not getting any better . Perhaps he alr cant last long . Haiz . 
Prolly i can get to see him tomorrow ... Idk what to hope for him . 

A sad post ...


Currently , my uncle is lying in the ICU , and he just had his major brain operation to remove 
the blood clot . And , the next 48 hours is critical , We might just lose him , anytime . 
If he wakes up , He will still be sort of vegetable ....
Why ? Why does such things happen every year ? 
One day , you can still see a person living happily , Smiling and talking in front of you .
And the very next moment , Before you even had the chance to bid farewell , they left you . 
First was my dear grandpa .
Then my aunt .
No , Please . I dont want any such things to happen this year again . 
But , chances of survival are low , even the skull was removed . 
Please . DONT TAKE HIM AWAY . Please . Hes the uncle who sees me up , the uncle who never forgets us when he won in 4D . I remember my last $50 from him . Just a few months ago ....
He was still laughing and talking in front of us , And how he could be the one , who leave us , now and forever ...


i seriously dont know what i can do now , except for praying for him ...
Please , dont take him away ... Life is really really fragile . 
WE OFTEN TAKE OUR HEALTH FOR GRANTED . REALLY . 
please wake him up . Please . haizzz .............................. :'(