A sad post ...


Currently , my uncle is lying in the ICU , and he just had his major brain operation to remove 
the blood clot . And , the next 48 hours is critical , We might just lose him , anytime . 
If he wakes up , He will still be sort of vegetable ....
Why ? Why does such things happen every year ? 
One day , you can still see a person living happily , Smiling and talking in front of you .
And the very next moment , Before you even had the chance to bid farewell , they left you . 
First was my dear grandpa .
Then my aunt .
No , Please . I dont want any such things to happen this year again . 
But , chances of survival are low , even the skull was removed . 
Please . DONT TAKE HIM AWAY . Please . Hes the uncle who sees me up , the uncle who never forgets us when he won in 4D . I remember my last $50 from him . Just a few months ago ....
He was still laughing and talking in front of us , And how he could be the one , who leave us , now and forever ...


i seriously dont know what i can do now , except for praying for him ...
Please , dont take him away ... Life is really really fragile . 
WE OFTEN TAKE OUR HEALTH FOR GRANTED . REALLY . 
please wake him up . Please . haizzz .............................. :'(

FOR U .

Dear Brother ,

You suck .

I really hate to be your sister , And i really hate having you as a brother .

I hate you for being soooo rude to MY mom .

I hate that you think you are smarter than me when you are actually not .

I hate the fact that you have no respect , for anyone .

I hate it when i had to write this HERE because i just dont want to bloody yelled at your face .

I hate to accept the fact that you had already lost my respect for you .

I hate the fact tat im sooooo angry at you . 

I HATE THE FACT THAT YOU ALWAYS LIKE TO PUT WORDS IN MY MOUTH , BLOODY LOSER .

You make me so dread of returning home .

Seeing your face totally turns me off .

You totally make me wanna treat you as a stranger .

You are a monster .

You are a stupid dumb ass .

Its beyond words to convey how much i dislike you .

Yes i hate you .

Please just get out of my way .

It'll be best it you just leave me alone .

Leave my life too , my uptmost thanks .

I totally hate quarreling w you because it lowers me down to YOUR ground .

I seriously want to see how your children will treat you in the future , I'll see how you feel like how MY mom does .

THE WAY YOU TALK TO MY MOM TOTALLY MAKES ME FEEL LIKE CALLING YOU A BASTARD , BUT SORRY IM SPARING A THOUGHT FOR MY MOM .

I hate the fact that this list doesnt end here , And it will never .

Thankyou for letting me know that such brothers exist .

And lastly , I hate the fact that im being so harsh here , BUT TAKE THAT IN MIND , you forced me to .

From ,

Me .

Results really showed me who people really are . 

You know . It is really till a certain unexpected level that a peer can go just for the sake of marks . Yeah , i know that results do matter , in fact they are really important , but why do people have to do it to the extent that they just dont care anything except for the one marks they are trying to fight . And usually those people are the ones that always told me they dont and never cared about results . I mean , why people cant just be happy for other people ?  Well , Its not that im a victim in any of the scenario . But . Dont people realise that theres really alot more than just a results . For example , If you get high marks ,Yeah its something you thats commendable . And theres nothing wrong for you to be happy about it . But , if theres like someone around you who is just on the verge of passing , Or that person even failed . What will you really do ? Grumbling repeatedly in front of your friend for that one mark you missed to get an A1 . I know theres seriously nothing wrong for us to grumble for our careless mistake . But do we ever care about those whos just on the verge of passing , Whos sitting down there and listening to all our rantings ? Well , its okay for us to feel that way . For thats the only way we learnt from mistakes . But you really gotta know that . ENOUGH IS ENOUGH . Cmon , All you passed for a friend that failed was , "NO WHY U GOT THIS MARKS ? I THOUGHT YOU VERY CLEVER ONE ?????!!!! " , "I LuCKY ONLY LAR " and you are bloody sitting down there rumbling and rumbling .... Do you see the point here ? 

Gotta talk about another thing . 

Sometimes you just felt like , That person is so mean . Why am i getting this type of treatment ? I should get back to her one day . But , just at that moment when you wanna rebut . Just ask yourself ? Isit worth it ? Does it mean that when people do that to me , I had to do the same MEAN thing back . What people do to you , Its kind of none of your business , BUT are you sure you want to lower yourself down to that person ground just for that argument ? What you do to other people is indeed another Different thing .

people often put themselves in front of others , in fact , Always .

Its hard to deny people are not selfish , While seeing the need to protect and defend for yourself , and in the midst you had inflicted hurt to a friend . You had lost more than what you were actually trying to gain .

People always think that , OH if its other people , IM sure they will do this to me too . SO why should i go and care about how they feel . Probably i should just shun them off w some words . 

But ironically , its through such things that we learnt valuable lessons . Receiving comes from giving . Joy is a simple word so easy to define , But its never easy to fulfill . How can you expect to get something in return if you dont give ? 

But always , Action speaks louder than words . But i really hope that people around me , even me myself . Can work harder towards it . 

I hate to study , But my life is like a > I live to study . Grrrrr . Why should I ?
MY MOTTO IS :
I LIVE TO SHOP/EAT/PLAY/SING/DANCE/SLEEP Etc .
To Love and to be loved :)))


But sometimes Im really stressed like zxcvsjdgawuronbdkfjaghoar .
You know how it feels when you're like a pathetic loser . But apparently it doesnt helps feeling that way . 
HAHAHA . Slower pace please . Who gives a shit about Some squishy Black and white paper w 7458345 Questions to squeeze your pathetic brain juice ? The product was just some freaking crippled mentally you . Yaye Yaye Just give it up , 2011 . 


NANANANANNANANANANANANA . I WANNA ENJOY LIFE .

For a friend .

Am i the one whos changing ? Or people around me is advancing ?
GRR . Tell me my brain is in haywire . At least that makes a person who feel she does better .
For You .
Why does things gets forgiven , But never forgotten .
I saw you today , yesterday . Just like every other day .
And probably thats what i say , So near , Yet so far . We are just arms apart . Yet to our eyes , Its Miles apart .
I seriously ruined this friendship . Hi stranger . Yes i know . Im not good in relationships .  We will never be like how we used to be anymore . You know how much i thought about the past ? Seeing you and her . That was a piece of mirror . BUT , A year ago . If i could , If i really could , i guess I would definitely not let things run down . I know . Nothing can account for the words spoken . Im so so sorry . Probably im just the one who you hated most right now ? You dont wanna talk to me anymore . Yeah , not anymore . Its not gonna be the same anymore , And it iwll never be the same anymore . Yeah , I landed to this myself . So cmon . Who i had to blame ? Yeah . I'll never hope much , Not anymore . Cause , I know . where i stand from now on . 
Ohh . Just a few months , and i lost very , very much. More than even words can account to . More than even tears can felt for . Thast really pathetic . And yeah . I had this day . 


Oh please , Grant me a wish . And that'll be it . 

ITS PAYBACK TIME .

I smiled on. Cause i didnt know . am i gonna continue smiling or give a tear after that .
Im so stupid . 

I dont want just to be someone you will always remember . 
I want to be someone you cant possibly forget .

The days are getting longer , the nights are getting shorter :(





This perfectly questioned my own abilities .IM DOUBTING MYSELF . Oh why ? why triple science ? Im never anticipating lessons like i did anymore . Im not used to hearing the always silence in the class . Farewell to the laughters we ONCE had . Having said that doesnt mean i need an entertainer . Phew . I just think of how last year secondary two was . Ohwell , I just hope my FT stop finding faults with me . Im gonna be a good girl . And please make my life easier . I really hope things will get better , Sigh . LOL . Okay , Its enough . CARINA will see how far will her determination bring her (: 

I hate people who question my rights and abilities. 

mind you to judge your pathetic little self before you come grumbling and rumbling about me. 

Your mouth is just another pathetic shooter. 

Set your eyes to be a little bit more mindful. 

I am sure it will rot and decompose some day.

Hey i hate you. Please get out of my wonderful tomorrow.